Random things always pop into my head at the most random times. Like now. I’m babysitting the 3 boys which by the way, are completely terrible but I get paid well so it’s fine. Anyways, I’m sitting on the couch with the boys while they watch a movie. We’re watching Ralph Breaks the Internet. But that’s besides the point. But as we’re watching the movie, I started thinking about school and then college. I just got accepted into my third college and I only applied to three. But like when I finally decide on what college I’m going to and then when I actually go it’s gonna be totally different then my life now. There’s nobody there to tell me to get my ass up and get to class on time. Or to do my homework or study. I’m on my own at that point. And to be honest, it scares me. In middle and high school I’ve always “clicked” with a teacher and we’ve created a bond that most students don’t have with teachers. My 8th grade Language arts teacher, Mrs. Conklin, takes me out to dinner from time to time because she wants to catch up with me. She came to senior night because “one of my kids is being recognized and I wouldn’t miss it for the world.” She treats me like her daughter. I get texts from her randomly asking what I’m doing or where I am or something like that. That might be weird to some people and trust me I understand because that doesn’t normally happen with former students and teachers. There’s a few teachers that I’m close with (not as close as I am with Mrs. Conklin) but I’ll leave them nameless incase they don’t wanna be named. But I’m scared I’m not going to have anyone like that in college. If I’m having a rough day, I go see a teacher I’m close with and we talk about it. Can I do that with my professors? I feel like I can’t or they won’t know me well enough and we won’t be able to form that bond.

I don’t know that blog was kinda all over the place but honestly, what’s new. I’m always all over the place.